had a major one with the Mum in the car driving her back.
i really dun understand why she has to be so fucking negative about everything. even running??? all my life, whatever fucking thing i do, she has been the first one to say “nononono”,”dun dun dun dun”. it’s like the fucking brain just got soaked in a bucket of negativity or something. so much so that i just want to stay in my room forever – cos everything she says is just pure negative. Fucking hate it. waiting for the 1mio dollar mark, snapshot it, and off i go for a new apartment. It’s utter bliss that she’s staying with the Sister….
i really envy people with support in their life – people who are positive and encouraging. the older i get, the more i wonder – why did dad commit adultery back then? to some extent, i think i know why…the whole family was shunting him, the wife was a fucking nagger who;s totally negative about everything stinking thing. obviously u jump into some love when it’s available.
i really gotta think abt myself and what i want in the marriage….
too nice. is sometimes not a good thing…